Dissonance Paper
We played a game. We were in a taxi driving down a dark street on a country road lit only by the moon. The game was one where you find out your personality with three psychoanalytical questions. The first question was prompted by closing our eyes and picturing all white. “What do you feel?”
“Like sleeping.”
“Peace”
“It’s a blank canvas waiting for me to throw paint on it.”
In regards to a topic of inquiry my mind reads white, not like sleeping, not like peace, but like a canvas.
What would I like to investigate? What questions do I have?
Do students see themselves as writers or do they think of writing as a skill?
Should they think of themselves as writers?
What are they motivated to read and write about?
What relationship do they see between reading and writing?
If they were to design this course, how would they design it?
What do they think of the textbook we use in 101?
How do different Englishes become integrated in the classroom?
Do my students’ definitions of writing and being a writer come primarily from school? (example: I’m a C + writer).
Last week my students and I read two essays about different Englishes. One essay discussed the implications of “talking white” versus “talking black,” white being proper and academic, black being slang etc. The author ends saying, “I don’t talk white, I talk right.” The second essay discusses “broken English” and how it has shaped the author and her mother. Her conclusion is: This is the way my family talks! This is part of who I am!
What I really want to talk about though, isn’t the essays but my students. Nearly all of them could relate at some level to the essays because they have parents, and grandparents who speak other languages and other forms of English: German, Samoan, Tagalog, Ebonics, Japanese, Hawaiian pidgin, Lithuanian, Russian, Mojave, Spanish. I was surprised that the majority of them had a direct experience with someone who speaks English in a nonstandard manner. Yeah, we all speak differently to different people, but changes in speaking English due to context alone, is different than speaking different forms of English that are shaped by other languages.
Some of the overall responses to the readings were that my students distinguished between proper English and other Englishes. They stated that proper English is important to know in the academic and professional fields. Several commented on their abilities to switch from one way of speaking to another. As one young lady stated, “You gotta know when to hold em and when to fold em.” They wrote about their experiences translating for family members, which some viewed as positive and others as a drag. They wrote about being called white and declared that we should not be judged on how we speak but on who we are.
The articles we’ve been reading feel so far away from the students and the classroom. I know the topics are around theory and history and that is part of the reason why they feel distant. This information is important for understanding the context of where composition studies finds itself today. However, I’m eager to focus on what is currently occurring. By currently I mean, what is going on in the classroom as I teach, as we write, as we discuss, as we read, as we write some more.
Researchers ask, “Oh these Englishes, what to do with them? How do they affect the student? How do they shape composition instruction?” I ask those same questions. I also wonder, how many researchers have personal experience with this. Do most researchers on the topic come from (to simplify) standard English speaking backgrounds? Or like Mr. Canagarajah, have they had to personally navigate between home and family, friends, dominant, academic ways of speaking. Again, I’m not referring to just changes in context. I’m referring to changes in sentence structure, word choice, rhythm, accent, syntax, aspects of language that mark the speaker as being of a particular background.
Another reason for the distance between theory and practice, and between my perceptions and my students is that I’ve always liked reading and writing. I believe people who wrote the 101 textbook probably feel the same way. Because of this, I have a hard time understanding how my students view reading and writing. Their experience with it has come in large part from outside sources: textbooks and teachers, tests. I know they write e-mails, text messages, journals, poetry. What, however, is their view of themselves as writers. What is it? Where does it come from? And how does that shape their concept of what it means to write? Also, how does their concept of language as a whole (speaking, reading, writing, listening) affect their view of the writing process.
When I think about the students in my classroom, I feel they are a microcosm of one of the strengths of the U.S, which is its diversity of experiences. In asking how different Englishes shape composition theory and instruction, I feel like the answers are in their heads and in their actions, in the way they write, how they approach writing and how they change and grow as writers. I’m not so much interested in integrating dialects etc. into their writing. I think that will come naturally as they write more and integrate what they know with what they want to understand and express. It seems to already be occurring. For example, I’m seeing some students use Spanish in their writing.
What am I interested in? I’m interested in seeing how their self-perception and confidence can grow through this writing course–not that they lack self confidence. However, because most of them have said that they don’t read or write extensively outside of school, it seems that their definitions of themselves as writers stems primarily from their school experiences. If this is the case, then the definitions of writing and being a writer should not rely solely on being able to write a narrative or an evaluative paper.
One project that I have been rolling around in my head is to have students compile four readings, which they think would be useful in becoming a stronger reader and writer. In conjunction with this project, they will write an analysis paper (this fits with the standard 101 curriculum). In this paper they will have to analyze: 1) How does a person become a stronger reader and writer? 2) What personal purpose do they have in becoming a stronger reader and writer? 3) What is the value of their selected readings in helping not only them, but their classmates become stronger writers?
Why readings? And not a list of activities for writing? Well I’m still thinking this out so you are a reading a work in progress. First, by the time I assign this project, the students will have read several essays from the textbook and written three papers. I’m interested in knowing how they view the writing process up to this point. What relationship do they see between reading and writing? I also want them to use their strengths and interests to contribute the discussion on what is good writing, what is the writing process and who are they as writers.
Returning to the earlier point of different kinds of English, writing is language. Writing is communication. Having such a rich understanding of the different varieties of English means a rich variety of what it means to write, the form that the writing takes, and the expression that occurs from it.
I am not yet able to articulate what my exact question is. I know I keep repeating several questions throughout this writing. The exact one will come to me. I know because I just had déjà vu.
(after sleeping on it)
I would like my research paper to help inform and understand the previously mentioned project. To open the project I will model by creating a set of readings that will (as of now) revolve around the concept of language as power. Perhaps that will be my number one question: how can the English 101 course use the concept of language as power to guide instruction and give reasons for writing?